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01 January 2022 @ 11:24 pm
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Friends Only Banner made by littlemermaid @ dream_fairytale A new year is coming. GG is ending and I've changed a bit since the last FO post. This journal is home to the rants and ravings of yours truly. Most the RL stuff is locked down, but that may be changing. Fandom wise? I post my fanfiction to yellow_violets. I'm not as active fanfiction wise, but I love discussing and dissecting my favorite shows. When I make graphics and non original fiction related mixes, they go to buttercup_magic (Little bare there, work with me :P) I write original fiction for the most part. Each series has it's own journal (Or two) and those can be found below this entry. If you need LJ links, feel free to drop me a line, if you can't find them. I can also be found on various other sites under my other pen name, tatygirl90. There's a tatygirl90 LJ that was me some seven years ago, but this journal is me circa 2005-forseeable future. I live at home. While this allows me unfiltered access to my funds, it also comes along with other drama...that I detail on an almost daily basis. But what can I say? Family is family. Wanna know more? Drop a line and I'll get back to you. Trust me, I love to talk...especially about myself. XD
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03 January 2019 @ 08:45 pm
I liked lusimeles's quote post, so I decided I do one of my own. Except I'm going to write the quotes in this post instead of the comments. I think it'd be easier for me to keep up with that way. Feel free to comment.

1. Nobody has ever measured, not even the poets, how much the heart can hold -Zelda Fitzgerald
2. She is a great gobbler of books, but reads only trash, memorizing nothing and leaving out the longer descriptions -Vladimir Nabokov in Despair.
3. Imagination is more important than knowledge. Knowledge is limited. Imagination encircles the world. -Albert Einstein
4. Formal education will make you a living; self-education will make you a fortune -Jim Rohn
5. Have faith that God loves you in a way which you cannot dream, loves you even with your sin and in your sin- Fyodor Dostoyevsky in the Book II: Women of Faith of The Brothers Karamazov
6. You'll never get to heaven if you're scared of getting high- Kylie Minogue, Red Blooded Woman
7. She writes like she's starving and reads like she's feasting -R.D. Larson
8. Life is a long ache which rarely sleeps and can never be cured.- George Sand
9. I have the choice of being constantly active and happy or introspectively passive and sad. Or I can go mad by ricocheting in between.- Sylvia Plath
10. Yes, I was infatuated with you: I am still. No one has ever heightened such a keen capacity of physical sensation in me. I cut you out because I couldn't stand being a passing fancy. Before I give my body, I must give my thoughts, my mind, my dreams. And you weren't having any of those.- Sylvia Plath
11. I love people. Everybody. I love them, I think, as a stamp collector loves his collection. Every story, every incident, every bit of conversation is raw material for me. My love's not impersonal yet not wholly subjective either. I would like to be everyone, a cripple, a dying man, a whore, and then come back to write about my thoughts, my emotions, as that person. But I am not omniscient. I have to live my life, and it is the only one I'll ever have. And you cannot regard your own life with objective curiosity all the time...-Sylvia Plath
12. Perhaps some day I'll crawl back home, beaten, defeated. But not as long as I can make stories out of my heartbreak, beauty out of sorrow.- Sylvia Plath
13. Living with him is like being told a perpetual story: his mind is the biggest, most imaginative I have ever met. I could live in its growing countries forever.- Sylvia Plath
14. I have known the joy and pain of friendship. I have served and been served. I have made some good enemies for which I am not a bit sorry. I have loved unselfishly, and I have fondled hatred with the red-hot tongs of Hell. That's living.- Zora Neale Hurston
15. Love is like the sea. It's a moving thing, but still and all, it takes its shape from the shore it meets, and it's different with every shore.- Zora Neale Hurston
16. If you are silent about your pain, they’ll kill you and say you enjoyed it. - Zora Neale Hurston
17. I think that little by little I'll be able to solve my problems and survive.- Frida Kahlo
18. Nothing is absolute. Everything changes, everything moves, everything revolves, everything flies and goes away.- Frida Kahlo
19. And so our mothers and grandmothers have, more often than not anonymously, handed on the creative spark, the seed of the flower they themselves never hoped to see -- or like a sealed letter they could not plainly read.-Alice Walker
20. The most common way people give up their power is by thinking they don't have any.- Alice Walker
21. It is not our differences that divide us. It is our inability to recognize, accept, and celebrate those differences. -Audre Lorde
22. Breathe. Let go. And remind yourself that this very moment is the only one you know you have for sure. -Oprah Winfrey
23. When I dare to be powerful - to use my strength in the service of my vision, then it becomes less and less important whether I am afraid. -Audre Lorde
24. Grab the broom of anger and drive off the beast of fear. -Zora Neale Hurston
25. Your silence will not protect you. -Audre Lorde
26. Don't be afraid to feel as angry or as loving as you can, because when you feel nothing, it's just death. -Lena Horne
27. I will not have my life narrowed down. I will not bow down to somebody else's whim or to someone else's ignorance. -bell hooks
28. You have a right to your thoughts and feelings. Your feelings are always valid. -Iyanla Vanzant
29. We may encounter many defeats but we must not be defeated. -Maya Angelou
30. Hate is too great a burden to bear. It injures the hater more than it injures the hated. -Coretta Scott King
31. I really don't think life is about the I-could-have-beens. Life is only about the I-tried-to-do. I don't mind the failure but I can't imagine that I'd forgive myself if I didn't try. -Nikki Giovanni
32. Never work just for money or for power. They won't save your soul or help you sleep at night. -Marian Wright Edelman
33. Do you want to know who you are? Don't ask. Act! Action will delineate and define you.-Thomas Jefferson
34. All great achievements require time.-Maya Angelou
35. You can't build a reputation on what you are going to do.-Henry Ford
36. It is never too late to be what you might have been-George Eliot
37. I like not only to be loved. I like to be told that I am loved-George Eliot
38. You cannot find peace by avoiding life-Virginia Woolf
39. Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.- H. Jackson Brown, Jr.
40. You must be the change you want to see in the world.-Mahatma Gandhi
41. People who are crazy enough to think they can change the world, are the ones who do.-Apple Inc.
42. Don’t let life discourage you; everyone who got where he is had to begin where he was.- Richard L. Evans
43. The man who removes a mountain begins by carrying away small stones.-Chinese Proverb
44. I want to say somewhere: I've tried to be forgiving. And yet. There were times in my life, whole years, when anger got the better of me. Ugliness turned me inside out. There was a certain satisfaction in bitterness. I courted it. It was standing outside, and I invited it in.-Nicole Krauss
45. Can you understand? Someone, somewhere, can you understand me a little, love me a little? For all my despair, for all my ideals, for all that - I love life. But it is hard, and I have so much - so very much to learn.-Sylvia Plath
46. I am still so naïve; I know pretty much what I like and dislike; but please, don’t ask me who I am. A passionate, fragmentary girl, maybe?-Sylvia Plath
47. I wonder why I don't go to bed and go to sleep. But then it would be tomorrow, so I decide that no matter how tired, no matter how incoherent I am, I can skip on hour more of sleep and live.-Sylvia Plath
48. Art is magic delivered from the lie of being truth.-Theodor Adorno
49. A writer — and, I believe, generally all persons — must think that whatever happens to him or her is a resource. All things have been given to us for a purpose, and an artist must feel this more intensely. All that happens to us, including our humiliations, our misfortunes, our embarrassments, all is given to us as raw material, as clay, so that we may shape our art.- Jorge Luis Borges
50. Better to write for yourself and have no public, than to write for the public and have no self.-Cyril Connolly
51. Birth is the start of loneliness and loneliness the start of poetry...-Erica Jong
52. Life is a process of becoming, a combination of states we have to go through. Where people fail is that they wish to elect a state and remain in it. This is a kind of death.-Anais Nin
53. Anxiety is love's greatest killer. It makes one feel as you might when a drowning man holds unto you. You want to save him, but you know he will strangle you with his panic.-Anais Nin
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08 September 2016 @ 12:18 am
Originally posted by a_phoenixdragon at In need of help (Signal Boost)
Please share this! Thank you!

In June I began working for a major cable TV provider. This was a job paying $11.50 an hour, giving full benefits, full coverage life insurance, and retirement plans. Not to mention commission and bonus opportunities. All ducks were lined up perfectly… until they were not.

To make this short, I was recently forced to quit my job due to my anxiety disorder. Because of my condition, I could not handle the job and respectfully resigned before the problem became more severe.

I am now unemployed and not sure if or when I’ll be able to hold down another job. I’m now in need of a way to bring in income. I’ve applied for Disability (SSI), but this could take up to 6 months. I need to bring in between $300-500 a month to be able to pay my bills, save up for a car, essentials for my cat, emergencies, and fun money.

First, I am open and needing suggestions about work from home jobs. Any and all ideas welcomed except for surveys! I’ve been there and done that.

I also have a modest Etsy shop set up and have a few things listed for sale on eBay.

Second, I’m willing to offer the following services in exchange for a monetary donation of the client's choosing:

- I’m willing and able to proof book reports, essays, reports, biographies (auto and narrative), resumes, fiction works (fanfic as well), and letters/emails. I ask that all requests do not exceed 10 pages, thank you.

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02 February 2016 @ 07:49 am
Latest blog post is up in which I talk about writing black heroines in historical romance.


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01 September 2015 @ 10:14 pm
1. Ginger and Rosa
2. Girls Against Boys
3. The Moth Diaries
4. Peace Love and Understanding
5. That's What I Am
6. Dirty Girl
7. Mimi's First Time
8. Sassy Pants
9. The Pill
10. Small, Moving Parts
11. I Am Not a Hipster
12. A Very Violent Year
13. Belle
14. Map to the Stars (The one with Robert Pattinson so I can recall this later)

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28 August 2015 @ 11:00 pm
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When yo niece gets a hold of the balloon stash

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28 May 2015 @ 05:27 pm
A poet is the most unpoetical of anything in existence; because he has no identity — he is continually informing — and filling some other body.-John Keats

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28 May 2015 @ 01:41 pm
Maya Angelou on writing poems.

Like a pianist runs her fingers over the keys, I'll search my mind for what to say. Now, the poem may want you to write it. And then sometimes you see a situation and think, "I'd like to write about that." Those are two different ways of being approached by a poem, or approaching a poem. source

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So I've never been the biggest fan of the military. As a teenager I was against the war in Iraq, but I never really thought too much about the military. A guy I was crushing on was planning on going in and me being all Bella-like was prepared to be a military wife. So no at that point I didn't really have anything against going into the military.

But the events of the past few years plus my self learning into how black Americans are treated in this country have really made me gain more of an opinion on this topic. I was reading a post on FB about a black woman that supposedly committed suicide while enlisted. But it all the clues didn't add up. She may or may not have been murdered. But the military, the people she was basically giving her life for closed the case. They agreed with the coroner.

Now some you may know that my boyfriend has been planning to enlist in the National Guard. When he told me I was afraid. I didn't want him to go because I didn't want to lose him. At that point I wasn't necessarily thinking about the fact that he would be a black man in the military. But as I got home and processed it more I started to ruminate. You would have to be under the deepest rock in the sea to not notice at how many black people are being killed in America. It's not just black men though they are more visible. I don't understand why as a black person you would enlist in a army to defend a country that does not care about you. I just don't. I'm sure we as black people feel patriotic just like everyone else. But for me that does not extend to my life on the line for a country that would spit on my grave. Just no.

One of my LJ friends asked me to post the story I sent to my boyfriend. It's a very short story but it seems up what I wrote above in a fictional way.

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14 March 2015 @ 05:20 pm
What is your opinion of religion? Is the world a better or worse place because of it?
I think religion has a purpose. I think it uplifts people. But for myself personally it has no place in my life anymore.
11 February 2015 @ 02:49 pm
The poem I want to share today is beautiful by Michelle Tea. I first became aware of Michelle Tea by trolling the wiki. I think I was looking at the queercore article and it led to her page. After this, I bought one of her books. It was an experience. It was slightly different but nice. I really like her writing. This poem was the second of her poems in the spoken word anthology. It's about America. I think it speaks to the experience many have us have of not being accepted because of things we can't control and the way our country views us. So without further ado.


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10 February 2015 @ 09:19 pm
I recently bought a spoken word anthology edited by and featuring women. The poem that I'm posting is the first one and I really liked it! I like the way it flows and it's just gorgeous. I hope you guys enjoy.

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02 January 2015 @ 09:26 pm
I finished Midnight Secretary. I wrote a review of the series (Without spoilers) at my book blog: http://black-femme-and-bookish.blogspot.com/2015/01/midnight-secretary-by-ohmi-tomu-series.html

Check it out if you please!

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31 December 2014 @ 11:59 pm
Write about 355 words starting today (October 17, 2014) to finish your goal of 70,000 words for Chloe's Book.

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1. The Disreputable History of Frankie Landu-Banks by E.Lockheart
2. The Second Sex by Simone de Beauvoir
3. Sacred Pleasure by __________
4. Finish reread of Pride and Prejudice
5. Bitten by Kelley Armstrong



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21 December 2014 @ 05:12 pm
There's a lot of nostalgia around old franchises coming back right now. Movies, TV shows, even action figures! What's something from your childhood that you wish would come back? Why?

(This question will remain in place for a few days while Writer's Block is re-launched -- we'll have new questions each weekday starting on Monday!)
I would love it if NSYNC went on tour. I never got to see them as a preteen and I regret that. I screamed blood murder at the VMA reunion but I want a full tour. I want to relive a little bit of my childhood.
28 November 2014 @ 08:39 pm
After I finished watching the trailer for the first(?) time I started to think. I was in bed with Martel and we started to talk.

My first thought was that the John Boyega character couldn't be real stormtropper. I thought this because the stormtroppers are all clones of Jango Fett. Then we thought maybe he's a good guy that's dressing up in the gear. I mean given that he looks like he's trying to get away I can see that.

And the Sith at the end? The only thing I've been worried about is that they might try to bring Vader back. But seeing the Sith and it looks nothing like him I have hope. I think he could probably be a secret apprentice to either Palpatine or Vader? I know they did that sort of stuff in the EU.

And I recall seeing the lightsaber design like that before? I didn't see the promotional picture until today but I really recall seeing a similar design like that somewhere. I'm thinking in the EU maybe?

Anyway those are my thoughts. I hope we get some character names. I want to see the trio in one of these trailers at least. Maybe when we get the full two minute one?

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23 November 2014 @ 04:30 am
This past week has been good reading wise. Four books. Here's some thoughts.

The DUFF: Designated Ugly Fat FriendThe DUFF: Designated Ugly Fat Friend by Kody Keplinger

My rating: 4 of 5 stars

I had heard about this book awhile back. I finally decided to buy it a few months ago.

What prompted me to read it now was a post on ONTD. I read about the casting of it. My internal monologue was like: "Don't I have that book? Yes you definitely have that book. Should I read it? Yes you should definitely read it."

I started it on Saturday night. I really liked it. Bianca is a nice narrator though she did kinda get on my nerves. She's abrasive but that's how she was written. She's a pretty realistic teenage narrator.

Her relationship with her friends is what really sold me on this book. I looked the little bit on how she became friends with Casey and esp. with Jessica. I've made a lot of my friends similar ways and it really touched me.

I thought her relationship with her parents was really well done too. I mean haven't we all held something in because we didn't know to approach the other person? I mean hell I still do that.

And Wesley. Alright I'm going to admit I was rooting for her to end up with him. My ideal type is cocky. But I'm glad that he mended his ways. And I like that they bonded over their family lives.

I really enjoyed this book and I'm looking forward to reading more from the author.

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The ABC's of Kissing BoysThe ABC's of Kissing Boys by Tina Ferraro

My rating: 3 of 5 stars

This was a really fun and cute book.

What stuck out to me most if the look it gives a peer pressure, bullying, and friendship in the like. I mean I know I've lost some friends over the years but I don't think I've been involved in a situation like Parker's but I could totally empathize with Becca.

Chrissandra (Her name annoys me) got what she deserved. She was so petty and I'm glad Parker came to realize it.

Tristan was really cute.

I really enjoyed this book. It was groundbreaking or anything but it was a nice read.

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Biggest Flirts (Superlatives, #1)Biggest Flirts by Jennifer Echols

My rating: 5 of 5 stars

This was my first book by Ms. Echols but it won't be the last if the rest are anything like this.

Where do I start?

Tia is a breath of fresh air. I want to say that I've just started to get into young adult fiction so maybe something has changed since I last read but Tia is nothing like the YA heroine I'm used to.

I mean for one Tia seems to have more personality. And she's complicated and she's funny. I don't know but compared to the books I've read before Tia seems to burst off the page. It's weird that I didn't notice it before but I guess you wouldn't notice if you don't have something to compare it too.

And the teenagers in this book seem realistic. Like I could see my former self and my friends as these kids you know?

I just really feel like this book was authentic and I greatly enjoyed it and I can't wait to read the rest of the series.

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Perfect Chemistry (Perfect Chemistry, #1)Perfect Chemistry by Simone Elkeles

My rating: 4 of 5 stars

Cute. Intense. The Epilogue was cheesy but it made me smile.

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I was just thinking about Perfect Chemistry. It was a good book. It didn't wow me like some books but I really enjoyed it. I mean I stayed in the bathtub for an extra thirty minutes reading it. And like I said that epilogue was cheesy as fuck but as I enjoyed the HP epilogue I didn't really mind it. It was really cute.

I've got more books from the library to read.

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15 October 2014 @ 12:29 am
I just watched Selfie. The first two episodes.

Here's my thoughts.

I like both the main characters. Their names are escaping me but I know the actors names so let me refer to them like that.

I like Karen's character. I think she is this generation taken to an extreme. I do believe a lot of us are worried too much about our online life. I mean I usually don't obsess about Tumblr notes but I've been monitoring that more now. Am I on my way to obsession? Maybe. Maybe not. I think it's natural to want to be liked. I think that's what Karen's character is figuring out. That online popularity doesn't always translate to real life.

And on the opposite end of the pole we have John's character. He's a self described Gen X. He's a workaholic and kinda stiff. I think his traits are also amplified to make a point. But I think he's seeing that he has things he needs to work as well.

The show is really cute and I'm enjoying it so far.

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13 October 2014 @ 11:06 pm
Naming characters is one of my favorite things ever. Like ever.

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20 September 2014 @ 07:11 am
Today's second poem is from Maya Angelou. This one is Woman Work. I initially clicked on it because of the title. It reminds me of the song This Woman's Work by Kate Bush. But what made me post it here is the end. Woman's work seems to be thankless. People take it for a given even me. I think it deserves more appreciation because if no one did it then we'd all be fucked.

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20 September 2014 @ 07:05 am
I will put up the graphic but I wanted to link to this. I have a few more to post for this challenge.

Today I start with another Plath poem. To say that she has had an influence on me is an understatement. After I read Metaphors and looked at the composition behind it it inspired me to try counting syllables. It lead directly to my poem Birthday Cake/Sweet Sixteen which I consider to be one of my best. I really enjoy this poem and I hope you guys will too.

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17 September 2014 @ 06:34 pm

{Take the 100 Things challenge!}

So I've been looking at erotica these past few days. One of the names that keeps coming up is Anais Nin. I had heard of before but for her diaries. I've only found this poem by her but I feel like it speaks to me and my sexuality.


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17 September 2014 @ 06:23 pm

{Take the 100 Things challenge!}

I'm posting some poems today and this is a disclaimer: These poems are erotic They might not be explicit but they are definitely erotic. If you do not like these then please feel free to ignore these posts.

The first I want to post is by Lucille Clifton. I've posted a few of her poems before. I feel like Lucille speaks to me. I guess I would call her a poetic foremother. I feel like her poems are good for the soul. This particular poem speaks to me a midst my totally unadulterated love for my man.

Dark Moses

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12 September 2014 @ 03:18 pm

{Take the 100 Things challenge!}

Last night I started to think about Audre Lorde's poems. A line had stuck with me. "I am woman and not white." So I looked up her stuff because it was late and I did not want to go retrieve the collected poems. Here is A Woman Speaks.

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02 September 2014 @ 06:29 am

{Take the 100 Things challenge!}

I recently acquired Edna St. Vincent Millay's collected poems. I saw Blight in the TOC and I flipped to it. I'm glad I did. I feel like it's talking to me. I have a lot of hate in my heart towards various individuals. I think I need to get rid of it. It would only make me feel better.

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01 September 2014 @ 05:08 pm

{Take the 100 Things challenge!}

I just got Aunt Lute's anthology of women writers in the US. This book focuses on the 17th-19th century. I looked through the table of contents and I saw Coquette et Froide. Need I say the title made me flip the page?

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